I thought that marriage would be so amazing I’m marrying my best friend how can it not be?
I have loved him forever so how can this not be anything but amazing.
I was kidding myself I have never felt this alone and this afraid and insecure in my whole entire life. I feel as though a part of who I am had been stripped and I don’t know how to get it back. I hate being a wife so much I hate that I have so much love for this man that is just constantly hurting me.he doesn’t see me he doesn’t understand me. His never there for me his constantly putting others before me. He lies to me.
But I married on Christ, I believe in marriage and I believe in God I just feel so super hopeless. I feel like I’m drowning so far and might just be so far from being saved. We live in a community that’s so close that I can’t even reach out and talk to someone it’s just to close. I feel like such a failure as a human and I don’t know where to start.
A trying wife 